Attentively Attentive to all Things

So I went to the doctor today.  Who cares, you might think to yourself...people go to the doctor everyday. For me, going to this doctor in particular, makes my blood pressure skyrocket.  My OB/Gyn is a wonderful doctor, and I have Caris because of him, but my blood pressure rises because of the anxiety I always get when he starts wanting to do tests on me.  My paternal side has a strong history of cancer, in particular a great aunt had uterine, ovarian, and cervical cancer.  You can appreciate my anxiety, yes?  I obviously have no symptoms of that deadly disease, but all it takes is a fleeting thought of it to send me reeling.  The last several times I was in his office, it was happy, baby on the ultrasound visits, and talk of bed rest and delivery. My reasons for going today are not a secret...I want Caris to have a little sister or brother.  However, I've learned from the past that it's best if I pay a visit to the doctor and get the prescribed c...

[caption id="" align="alignleft" width="127" caption="Caris' Baby Book"] [/caption] ....started writing in Caris' baby book today. I had been putting it off, mostly out of fear I guess. It's the same thing with buying baby stuff. I took the leap and bought clothes and a blanket, but nothing else yet. But, it's Saturday, and with nothing else to do other than update my baby registry (homework? Oh yeah....), I started it filling in the blanks. I have a picture of me and Dave to put inside in the proper location, a sonogram picture already stuck inside, and am debating on what sort of picture to put in the family spot. I have no other children....would a picture of pets be okay? LOL! They are our family and our children at the moment...as much I get irritated at them at times. I hope she likes it when she's old enough to read it...